Regret

Today, I will not be talking on what I have done for the day because what I have done for the day have some kind of relationship with food. Well, better make myself fatter by eating more of the heavenly food in Ipoh before going back and get myself thinner.

Everyone has been commenting that I got thinner. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? But I still think I am fat leh.

Some say, "Do not regret your actions because back then, when you make your decision, you believe in it". This really do not applies to me. It is because of the sudden thought, lacked of analysis, the habit of making decision very fast without thinking about the consequences had made me regret for what I have done. I could make my points very promising and make myself believe that what I have decided was correct. But, no matter how argumentative I can to myself, I could not deny that I do regret now, I really do, deep down my heart.

No matter how regretful I am feeling now, there is still this big problem that lies ahead. And I personally cannot solve it and do not know how to solve it. Sigh.

Another thing is that, I do not understand why some people do not learn from their mistakes. It is because of these mistakes which has made them failed in the past. And now, they are doing it again. Why cant they be more self-concious and be aware? Is 面子 that important? Must we look at it till it is like very big? He should have listen and discuss. I really do not know how to help, I feel so helpless and felt like I am a big burden. I really dunno what can I do..

Thats for today.